Tuesday, February 27, 2007

I'm Awesome

Tomorrow morning I will send off my creative writing portfolio with its letter of intent, and pray to all that is holy in this world, that I will be accepted to the highly competitive program. Although I've had copious doubts over the last month about my abilities as a writer, and the extent of my enjoyment from such process, I believe that this is what I really want. However, like any intelligent person hoping to avoid a downward spiralling depression that results in stripping by the name of "Tigress Modesto", I have made a plan B. That being the objective of becoming a raging alcoholic that resides at any local bar and yells slanderous insults at innocent couples. Don't worry, I'll keep all my clothes on.

The whole process has been rough, both emotionally and mentally, drawing upon all my creativity, discipline, and strength to complete it. In an attempt to change long running habits of self-defeating behaviour, I am going to give myself a pat on the back, and the permission to feel good. I've wasted too much time stressing over my negative qualities, and far too little time thinking that I'm awesome.

In a couple days, on March 1st, three relatively important things will happen. My portfolio will arrive in Montreal to be submitted and judged, I will celebrate my 20th birthday, and this blog will be a year old. If nothing else, my history of contributing to this blog is testament to my love for writing, and whether or not I do it well or poorly is something I'm not going to have an anxiety attack over.

Well, at least not today.

8 Comments:

Blogger screetus said...

Hey cool! May your application amaze and impress.
If you get in you'll be closer to Screetus.

5:31 PM  
Blogger ry said...

Allow me to be the first to wish you a happy birthday. Your writing is phenomenal and I'm absolutely positive that you'll get in.

10:05 PM  
Blogger Krista said...

good luck!

10:42 AM  
Blogger MilliVanilli said...

Hmm, you sound really really happy, and I hope it's not just the blog interfering with the fact that you're actually a depressed, moping wreck (not that I think you are). I'm now preparing my speech for when you're a famous writer, in your documantary when they want the inside information on you. Don't worry, I'll leave out the bits about how you beat me, or how your 15th birthday was also our celebration of you being able to control your bowl movements all by yourself.

6:43 PM  
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6:04 PM  
Blogger Smelly Danielly said...

OMG I SAW YOU LAST NIGHT!!!
haha that was fun...i hope you get into that school...im totally sure you will!!!

12:00 PM  
Anonymous nat said...

You are awesome.

Happy belated birthday. I hope it was grande, and that your application went well :)

9:59 AM  

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